I’ve just initiated an indefinate period of seperation from my near 6 year relationship.
Basically, I am tired.
I am tired of constantly battling and trying to work things out.
I am tired of sleepless nights, adrenaline rushes and healing just enough to be wounded again.
My existing relationship seems to be nothing more than an edifice of half-healed scars and every time something new occurs, all the old wounds reopen.
And there’s never any time to heal.
I give up.
What does this mean?
On the logistics side, I hope that my household arrangements will continue as they have.
On the emotional level, I am looking forward to a period of healing, stock taking, stability and eventually some peace. I am looking forward to becoming my own person a little more. It isnt going to be easy but at least I can see a possible destination that I can live with.